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My name is Chair and I rock.
Seventeen candles on the 28th September '09. I ? cocktails, cocaine, and clubbing.

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at 1:42:00 PM

life sucks.
it really do.
there's no point.
no point.




No matter what. at 1:58:00 AM

mannnn, it has been real long since i last posted.
hmmm, all i can say i still have not matured, i guess.
been trying to make improvements. been trying to be myself.
maybe the two year promise i have with God is just another thing that is
for me to run away from the reality, from my problems.
really feeling helpless.
if running away dosent help and when i'm facing it, i'll be thinking and doubting so much,
what should i really do?
nothing seem to be going ok.
i know i'm given what i need to get through, but i asked what should i do.
and all i get is no reply.
i asked. but why wouldn't You direct me?
i can't feel You anymore. i tried renewing myself in You.
but i just can't feel ath.
i waited.
what exactly is obstructing me from connecting with You?
what is it? argh. it's totally frustrating.
out of a sudden. i feel that everything is just so realistic.
you do well, ppl come after you, ppl are attracted to you, ppl want to be friends with you.
but when you are not doing well, ppl despise you, ppl talks about your every move. every mistake.
where is the love? where is the compassion that we humans use to have.
seriously, the end is coming. bad things is just coming one after another.
We need to stand strong in God. I dont wanna fall away just by a little push.
I gotta find back the passion i use to have, the drive, the energy.
I gotta be cheerful in every circumstance.
I need to chase after God.
get the momentum back. I want to be Great for God.
even without church, even without no nth, I'm gonna stand strong in God.
nth is going to affect my love for God. NOTHING.
temptations, mistakes, wrong doings might trip me, might make me cry.
but no NOTHING, is going to affect my love for God, and His love for me.
I gotta be strong. at the end of the day, no matter what i do, God still loves me.
We all gotta rmb that. (: rmb, NO MATTER WHAT.