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Sunday, April 4, 2010 @ 12:15:00 AM
haha. long time no post.
I can say that I'm already used to the Sec3 life.
the hectic, never-ending-homework, etc, life.
been a long while since i went to church.
as tuition clashes with service timing exactly.
service - 11-1
tuition - 12.30-2
aye, sian right. ayeee, but nvm, i got to go for service last friday as it was Good Friday! :D
haha, really glad that altough i hesitated for valid reasons, but i still made the right choice!
which is TO GO!
when i reached there, i was afraid, i felt bad, guilty, ashamed?
hmmm, dont know how to exactly bring it across, but that's roughly it.
like i felt bad for letting my emotions affect me so much.
that i would just let go of what i really cherish. - God, Church, People, My Destiny.
ya, but suddenly this thought came to me,
'my problems, worries, stress, seems so Big, so impossible to-get-by that kind,
but once i come to church, i will feel why did i feel this way and that way out there.
why will i regret everything that i do? the answer, God is greater than all our problems.
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH HIM! '
haha, yeahhh, as for sermon, Pastor preached about happiness.
happiness is basically to know where you come from, who you really are and where you are going.
when she said that, i was like, 'but i still don't know who i am and where i am going.'
...
alter call, Pastor called for members who are confused, tired, etc. to be brave and go up to get prayed for.
But i didn't.
haha, when i heard what she said, in my heart, i really really really wanted to go up.
aye, i was afriad of what pastor will say, like i'm afriad to hear that they are disappointed and stuffs.
in the end, rebecca came and ask me, so i decided to give it a go (:
when i got up to the front, i was really nervous, was really nervous about what God will tell me.
I wanted to hear God's voice, I wanted to see images, visions, etc.
I wanted it really badly.
even as pastor laid her hands on me, tears fell down uncontrollably,
i dont know why i cried, i just felt God, His love was so powerful that He don't need to speak,
it will just touch you and make you feel so loved.
it has been a long long long time since i felt him in such a real way.
the last time was a few weeks after i came to RN and chenxi talked to me.
telling me what God told her, that she was His precious daughter...
And i started sobbing, as if God is telling that to me.
haha, thinking bout it, just really makes me really amazed by God. :D
yeahh, on with the prayer.
pastor told me,
'... Winnie, don't let your bitterness rob you of your dreams, your destiny, ...
you know, you know that you have a destiny, a purpose in life. ...'
at first i hear that, i knew, i knew that i had to let go of my bitterness,
i don't want to lose everything i loved just because of hatred, bitterness, unhappiness.
yeah. overall it's like that.
i really hope that i can breakthrough. attend service faithfully etc.
aye, damn tuition, i can't go.
pastor told me to pray that the day of tuition will change.
and i really did and really hope that it will! :D
With God, Nothing is Impossible! (:
Let's wait for the good news. ((:
