I need to lay down my life.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010 @ 3:17:00 AM
Mann, suddenly just felt like posting. hah.
mmm, been not really okay recently.
like ya, although nothing much happened, but ya, stagnant, lukewarm.
argh, sometimes, it's just really frustrating. ...
like ya, people are going for SOW audi, getting in, etc..
it made me kinda like, i also want leyyy .
aye...
re read the message pastor text me.
first time i read it, it was like ya, ok, can. i didnt really get it.
after reading it the second time, it was like BAMMM!
YOU GOTTA LAY DOWN YOUR LIFE TO REAP A HARVEST.
wow. i was awestruck.
i know that things are different now, like i have changed and so have everything around me.
im not as naive, ambitious, etc, im kinda contented.
im just lacking that love, that faithfulness, that consistency.
mann, although i know how much everything means to me and the people around me,
yet i chose to be not okay once again. to go back to the emo zone.
i really had enough. God help me please.
please.
i feel that i really need to get back to my first love, which is You.
come back, come back to your first love~
I know it will take time and everything, help me not to give up so easily.
help me to be faithful, help me to fall in love with you once again.
cause i know, when you are the first thing on my heart,
what matters most to you will matter as much to me.
and that every lil part of my life, every moment, every motion, at the end of everything, i will reach that point where you planned i will me. the best place i can ever be.
ThankYou, for everything. iloveyou.
